Ceremony of Clarity Based in Social Economics

May 1 marked my lunar birthday this Taurus season.

This year, it arrived under a Full Moon in Scorpio; the sign of death, rebirth, power, and emotional truth. I also went to Inipi ceremony with my tribal family to purify myself of old energies to release. And quietly, I began a sober reset.

Five days in, and already clearer. Not just physically, but strategically and spiritually.

This birthday wasn’t about celebration. It was about initiation. My solar birthday was about closings and ending a chapter of my Saturn journey.

Scorpio full moons don’t illuminate what’s comfortable. They expose what’s hidden especially in the areas of shared resources, ego attachments, power dynamics, and emotional contracts. In this “Breaking Character Series” I’m going to be sharing stories of ego deaths.

And if I’m honest, this moon revealed imbalance. Not just in others but in my self.

Where I was overextending emotionally.

Where others were overextending to me.
Where I was underpricing strategically.

Where others were undervalued by me.

Where I was sitting in rooms that lacked infrastructure, working hard to understand why do I keep getting myself stuck in these circles, attracting these people.

Where ego, mine or others’, was masquerading as opportunity.

Ceremony aligned with that exposure. Expressing:

There’s a time and place for everything.

If you’ve ever sat in Inipi, you understand that it is not performance. It is heat. It is humility. It is release. Its connectedness to all of life’s creations. You enter carrying what you can no longer sustain and leave lighter.

Sitting in that space, sweating, praying, reflecting, I realized how much noise I had been tolerating.

Late night emotional labor.
Rooms with applause but no capital.
Conversations that felt productive but weren’t profitable. Access given without structure.

Sobriety felt aligned with that realization. Not as punishment or as a reaction, but as refinement. Where I decided I will no longer be doing guest work, tolerating inconsistency, and disrespect even if it’s not intentional.

Who I am matters, and I don’t have time for misunderstandings, again. Especially with those I have directly communicated with. So I’m forgiving myself and making space for others to restore on their own time. That’s the grace I’m wielding.

Clarity requires discipline and accountability.

And clarity changes how you see everything. How you make decisions and align yourself.

Let me say something gently especially to creatives:

If you are over 35 still chasing recognition without understanding return on investment, you do not have a talent problem. You have a strategy problem. You do not stand on business.

There is a difference.

When you invite someone to “just listen” to your music, your podcast, your project, understand what you’re asking for, passively in return:

You’re asking for marketing.
You’re asking for brand association.
You’re asking for PR.
You’re asking for distribution.

That is labor and access. That is leverage. That is economic value and quiet as kept there’s never really any guest value other than show up, listen to dope music, bring your own weed and liquor, make sure you engage ensuring we look good. Where’s the guest value and gratitude in that? I’ll pass. I’d rather be where I’m considered as a guest. Where’s there’s party favors, sponsors, or outstanding hospitality to say the least.

Exposure is currency. No matter if it’s one person or 50 million you’re being exposed to.

Listening is not passive, that’s someone paying attention. Attention is an asset.

I don’t live a false life. My trades pay me. Publishing pays me. Strategy pays me. Design pays me. Research pays me. My lifestyle pays me.

That’s intentional.

I am not interested in rooms where there is no structure, no funding, and no sustainability.

Scorpio energy doesn’t negotiate with delusion. It audits it. So this is me checking in and seeing where the assets are, that don’t have high liabilities, where their equity returns greatly; ROI. Time and Energy is currency, both are precious because once we spend it we can’t get it back.

This moon felt like an audit of my soul, heart and memories.

An accounting of time.
An accounting of energy.
An accounting of ego.

And ego is expensive not just financially, but strategically.

Ego convinces creatives that applause equals success, that visibility equals leverage. That being seen means you’re building something real. And a lot of those halfheartedly doing things are being revealed.

If your projects don’t pay you…
If your audience doesn’t convert…
If your circle cannot afford your services…

What exactly are you constructing?

This season isn’t about being seen.

It’s about being aligned. Multiplying wealth in ethical ways.

Alignment means cutting things early.
Alignment means raising standards quietly.
Alignment means choosing structure over spectacle.

I have outgrown certain rooms, certain conversations, and certain versions of myself. I’m clearing my mind, body and space.

Scorpio teaches that death is not destruction, it is transition. And I’ve had many deaths during this lifetime to understand the power of destruction through transformation. That’s why coming from the bottom and being the underdog is such a PR luxury story or overcoming some great defeat.

This version of me is less tolerant but more disciplined, spiritually anchored, and economically aware.

Ceremony anchored it.
Sobriety sharpened it.
Discipline is sealing it.

My divine state of mind is standardizing what peace means as it relates to Maat, divine mother energy, as a matriarch.

If you are building something real, audit it.
If you are asking for support, structure it.
If you are chasing visibility, fund it.

Know where you are flowing in the waves of socioeconomics, negotiate based on your financial and managerial abilities.

Otherwise, you’re rehearsing success.

Not living it.

And to my sister from the circle, I feel you. Sometimes you do have to sit and grow.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and prayers.

May divine things find you.

Aho Mitakuye Oyasin 🤲🏽